Okay, the site is no longer ugly. It's just boring. Progress is progress people. Try to be more like me and focus on the positive.

Jan 28, 2006


Well I heard from the design school. Not the news I was hoping for either, I might add. I was put on the wait list. So they accepted 18 students and put two on an alternative wait list. I don't know if I'm #19 or #20. So much like the runner up of a beauty pageant, I am hoping the winner breaks a hip or is caught sleeping with the judges. Don't let my humor mislead you. I am devastated. I plan to drop off the radar for a few days. I'll return phone calls and emails later next week. I need to lick my wounds for a while. I was arrogant enough to think they'd let me in as a junior. How embarrassing... I don't know what went wrong. I was pleased I got the interview. I don't know if I said something wrong or included too much of advertising work in the entrance exam. I don't know. I truly am at a loss. I mean I have 5 years experience! I guess that wasn't worth as much as I'd thought. One of the professors in the interview said he'd talk more with me about why, but I can't meet with him until I'm sure I won't start crying or something embarrassing like that. I suck.

Please don't bother writing me a comment either. It'd interupt me from pulling out my hair while I huddle in the corner trying to put my ego and self-esteem back together. Seriously, no comments please - just leave me alone for a good while. I've got Brian so it's not like I'm all alone or anything.

Jan 26, 2006

going craAAAzzy!

Why haven't I heard from the design school yet? I'm going nutzo. Brian got an email yesterday telling him he got into the Industrial program! Why, oh why haven't I heard anything yet. Granted they are different programs, BUT it's the same design school. I can't concentrate! I have projects coming due and midterms next week! I need to focus on those things. But instead I check my email every 5 minutes hoping for word. I've even been rude enough to send a polite email to the advisor of the department. I asked her if she knew WHEN I'd hear. I figured it was less rude than asking IF I got in and putting her in an awkward position.

WHY HAVEN'T I HEARD!? [she pulls out a clump of her own hair.] I need to check my email again....

Jan 24, 2006

time flies

Here is my first curtain panel. It's not much and is rather simple, but most of the seams are fairly straight. I plan to get to work on the second one either this weekend or after mid-terms next week. I did a little bit more detail to the top. I added a 1/2 inch strip before the pocket for the rod begins. It wasn't such a dramatic change that I thought it deserved me re-taking the photo. Brian thinks it bunches too much, but that's too bad. It is what it is and I'm happy with it.

I'm nervous. I could hear tomorrow how my interviews went on Friday. At least I should hear about the job if not the school, but for some reason I've linked them in my mind so I keep checking my email.

Mid-terms have snuck up on me here. I was cruising along feeling pretty good and wham! assignments are coming due and I have an exam on Tuesday next week. I'm trying to focus tonight. I went to pottery lab and as soon as I catch up my email, I'm going to work on my Photoshop assignment.

As always, wish me luck.

Jan 23, 2006

screwed up

I am totally screwed up today. I keep thinking I have to follow my Tuesday/Thursday schedule. It started yesterday even. I did my homework for Tuesday last night. This isn't a bad thing at all, but it's thrown my clock all off. Plus for some unknown reason I was thinking I'd be able to spend two evenings in a row in pottery lab. Monday/Wednesday the pottery lab is totally booked with classes - even an evening course. Oh well. All my homework is done until Wednesday.

I had such a productive pottery class today. I finally, finally, finally managed to make one 6 inch cylinder. I've made many 4 inch ones and even a few 5 inchers. Today is the first (and only) 6 inch. I' am so pleased with it. Now I need to cross my fingers that it won't explode in the kiln when it's fired on Wednesday. I made a total of 5 things today and only destroyed 1. That's a net profit of 4 lumpy bowls/cylinders. Yes indeedie, a productive day.

I finished my first curtain panel over the weekend. I took a picture, but I'll have to post it tomorrow. Brian broke a window when he was running around trying to get ready this morning. (He slid the computer into it. Don't ask me how 'cause I don't really get it myself.) So that distracted me from remembering to copy the file to my jump drive.

Now with my homework all caught up and the burden of feeling like I needed to at least get the first curtain panel done, I can do my favors for my friends and family. Paul, I will fix that insignia for you and Amy, I'll look at that logo you sent me.

I am one sink full of dirty dishes away from not having a 'to do' list!

Jan 20, 2006


Well I had two interviews today. My feet are killing me from the high heeled boots I wore so that I’d look tall, thin and professional. Why, oh why, do women think footwear can create miracles?

So the first interview was for the school of design. They interview 20 people for 18 positions in the school with 2 alternate positions. So I probably got in. I, at least, have a probability of 90% that I will be accepted in at least a sophomore level. I want to try to get a junior level spot, but they told me to meet with someone later if I was accepted in the first place. I had a fifteen minute sit-down with three professors. For the sake of this blog I will refer to them as Good Cop, Bad Cop and the Quiet One. Good Cop I’d met before and is actually the professor I spoke with about trying for a junior position. Bad Cop earned his name in the interview before mine. So I’m sitting outside the conference room were the interrogations, er I mean interviews are being held. The kid before me was getting nailed by Bad Cop. He kept hammering him, and you could tell the kid was getting quite flustered. Bad Cop kept asking him questions like, “If you’re as good as you claim to be on your application, why do you need us?” “What do you feel will be your contribution to the design community?” Bad Cop seemed to have the goal of just shaking this kid up, and it made me nervous. Then it was my turn. It didn’t turn out that badly. I saw a lot of head nodding from Good Cop and the Quiet One. Bad Cop played his cards closer to the vest and tried to come up with questions to stump me. Ironically, I wasn’t stumped until the Quiet One asked me a question at the end. He asked my how I would approach a class that I felt I already knew a lot about. “Would I be open to learning?” sort of question. I was flustered mostly because at that point I thought the thing was over. Bad Cop had left the room, and I was ready to make my exit. I pulled it together though and answered the questions enough that I got a head nod from both Good Cop and the Quiet One. Keep all your fingers crossed for me though.

The second interview was for a part-time job as a Graphic Design assistant at the supercomputer center on campus. I think it went well, but they have a few other interviews next week. I feel rather disloyal to my current job. I mean, I hate my job, but I hate being disloyal.

Jan 19, 2006

7 minutes in heaven

I have seven minutes before my next class begins. As a gift to you my audience, I will devote this precious free time to you.

I was bad today. I called off sick from work this morning. In my defense, I was feeling a little off. However, I'm sure I could have dragged my lazy butt in. It won't be a total bust of a day. I'll go in after my classes. After all, I am still a poor student at the end of the day. It felt so good to lounge a bit before coming in to school today. I'm always rushing around with no time between things so today was a nice departure.

I'm sitting in my photoshop/flash course, and I have 4 minutes left to hang out with you. I'll give you a little project update. I'm guessing you're sick of hearing about my projects, but I don't have all that much else to talk about today so you'll just have to suck it up and take it like a man. My curtains are going really well. I have to create the pocket at the top of my first panel and then that first panel will be done. I'll take pictures tonight if I get it done. I'm excited, but I know it's only the first of a four panels to be made. As far as pottery goes, I've made a few more little bowl type things. I'm going to make one or two more tonight and try to 'slip glaze' a few of the ones I made yesterday. My teacher is going to fire our stuff in the kiln on Wednesday so I need to get as much done as I can.

One minute, but maybe the T.A. will start class a little late. Who knows? This is a sweet computer I'm working on. It's a G5 Mac with a sweet flat panel monitor. I wish we had one of these for home. The ol' eMac can't quite compete. Okay I better go. The T.A. is calling roll. I hate it when they take attendance in college because it feels like elementary school all of a sudden.

I hope your day goes well.

Jan 18, 2006

oh crap! that's great....

Good news everyone. I was called in for an interview for the design school. I didn't know interviews were a part of the process, but the woman who called me yesterday said that it was a good thing. From what I understand if I didn't have an interview, a rejection letter would be on its way to my house. So it's good news. However, as you well know, good news always comes with some bad in my mind. Now I'm obsessing about this interview. What to wear, what to say, how to be? It's only 15 minutes but it's with a committee. I could handle a one on one, but a committee! eeeek. Wish me luck I have to figure out how to keep from going crazy until Friday at 9:45am.

On another topic, I made some great strides with my first curtain panel last night. After some issues with the bobbin wanting to jam, I was able to apply the dark strip of fabric to the bottom. I was very worried about this step because I didn't want it to look stupid and lumpy. But I think I pulled it off. Now I have to take in one of the sides and figure out how to make a pocket at the top for the rod. I'm trying to decide if I should have the fabric gather above the rod or just make a very simple pocket and call it a day. We'll see what I'm in the mood for tonight.

Jan 17, 2006

happy tuesday

Hi all. I have pictures for you all today. First is a picture of my wobbly potter you've all heard so much about. I have a lot of improvement to do, but for a beginner I'll say they're not terrible. I was good and went into the pottery lab on Saturday to make these. Hopefully by tomorrow I'll have at least two more crappy pots to turn in on Wednesday.

Next up I have my sewing project which I only began today. I have officially began on my curtain project. I'm having some issues with sewing in a straight line, but other than that it is going well. I made the project harder for myslef by adding a stip of dark fabric along the bottom. I should have kept it simpler, but I wanted to make sure the length would be long enough. So I picked out the stripe so it would be easy to sew and the brown to weigh down the bottom. I'm hopeful I won't screw this up too much.

I enjoyed having Monday off, but with Tuesday comes a return to educational grind.

Jan 13, 2006

so much for that

Okay, I've left the house and the day is looking much rougher! I caught the bus on time which is good. I picked up my chinese food - also good. However, the chinese is way hot. I'm in pain. If you know me well, you know that I don't have a high tolerance for hot and spicy foods. My mouth is on fire. There is not enough water in the world. I have to eat some of it though. I mean I paid for it, and it may be the only thing I eat all day.

Oh, and I forgot my headphones. Plus I have to go across campus to the registrars office on a personal errand that I forgot all about. Still feeling pretty good about the day, but the shine is off!

a new day

Well I feel refreshed. It's a new day. I slept in a bit. I just showered, and my schedule is light today. I think it's time to take another crack at cylanders. I'm foolishly optomisitic today. I've given myself a few days to recover from the trama that is throwing. The welt on my hand where I grinded it into the spinning wheel is healing, and my leg is much improved. Plus this is a 3 day weekend. Whoo Hoo! It's so rare for me to start the day in such a good mood. I think I'll reward myself with cheap, fast food chinese from the student union beefore I go in to work. Sounds like a plan, my man.

And theroetically at work I'm supposed to do web updates and design a newsletter for the department. If my boss leaves me alone to do these tasks, it should be a good day. And tonight is the night: I'm going to go to JoAnn fabrics to pick out curtain fabric. (I couldn't yesterday because Brian needed the car.)

It's gonna be a good day here people!

Jan 12, 2006


Well I made a cylinder today. It was only about 5 inches tall at best and it has a serious wobble issue. I saved it just in case it’s the only thing I’m able to make. I’m supposed to have 10 cylinders by next Wednesday. Whew, I don’t know about that. My teacher repealed her assignment a bit today. She said we could have cylinders of any height. I don’t think we’re as good as she was hoping. Certainly I’m not. I will take off a day or two from throwing and try again on Friday, Saturday and I should try on Monday since I won’t have any classes that day. I need the practice. My hands are drying out pretty quick though from all the clay. I’m walking around with lotion all the time now. If I don’t my hands start to ache and my palms itch. (insert joke about itchy palms here)

Other than that all my classes seem fine. My communications class is a huge lecture hall with 400 students. The prof makes the information fun and manages to interact a lot with the students during class. I just hope the tests aren’t too hard. My photoshop class is fine of course. I try not to seem too bored. I ordered the flash book for the second half of the class. I figure since photoshop is such a no brainer I should start working on the part of the class that’ll be more of a challenge.

My big plans on the horizon are to take down the Christmas tree and start on some curtains. I think Brian and I have been in denial about the tree, but the time has come for it to leave us for another year.

Jan 11, 2006

throw like a girl

Well it’s official. Throwing pottery is not a hidden skill I’ve been just waiting to discover I’m great at. I keep looking for the one thing that’ll turn out to be the thing I am awesome at. I know it’s not concert piano or any of the maths. But I figure greatness is lurking around the corner if I’ll keep trying new things. Now let me be clear hear people. I’m not looking for something I’m good at. I am looking for greatness. I am talking genius level. Idiot savant ‘great’ without the idiot part. With my luck my greatness is probably in sword swallowing or pain management while under torture conditions. When I play solitaire I like to pretend that’s the thing I’m awesome at. If there were a world championship solitaire tournament, I’d be one of the top competitors. I can keep up this daydream while I play until I realize I’ve missed several cards I could have uncovered. But I don’t lose hope. That thing, that mystical thing I’m truly great at, is out there. I need to keep looking.

Anyway. Back to pottery. This is going to be a struggle. Demi made it look so easy in Ghost. I mean if Demi can do it for the movies, why can’t I do it for real? Now I’ve only done it twice now. Well I’ve tried to throw something that resembles a cylander many times but only in two 2 hour sessions. To be even more accurate I’ve had 14 lumps of clay I’ve managed to turn into mud. Maybe tomorrow is my day. I’ll walk into class tomorrow and I will have turned a corner. Suddenly my hands will have figured out what my brain can’t seem to… yeah, right.

I’ll tell you one thing I’ve learned for sure, pottery making is an act of sheer physical will. My body feels like I worked out instead of just sitting for hours in a hunched over postion. It’s like your tense for 2 hours. Man did my bad leg hurt bad after trying to throw. Your arms put a lot of pressure on your legs while you try to control the clay. I try not to harp on my bad leg too much, but this freakin’ hurts. Don’t anyone tell my mom. She’ll worry. Well, you can tell her, but don’t play it up.

Jan 9, 2006

please refer

First of all I wrote a blog last week that I didn't get a chance to finish until today. It's called stoner kid. Please read it because I thought it was very funny. Today is like a 2 for 1 special...

Anyways...I was such a good little girl this weekend. I am very happy with the progress on the homefront. Let me give you a weekend report. On Friday, I did nothing. I was going to go out with a friend to a movie, but she got sick and cancelled. So I watched a rented movie and vegged out. Saturday was quite busy. I ran around to various stores buying my art supplies for the quarter. Then I went the the grocery store for the weekly big trip. Then I came home and played the video game I got for Christmas...finally. Then on Sunday it was laundry time. I gathered up all the laundry into every basket we had. I took $20 worth of quarters and headed to the laundry mat. Normally I would use the machines in my apartment area, but I wanted to get a lot done fast. So I did seven loads. Yes, seven. If I'd waited one more day, I would have been going comando. I washed all our clothes, all the towels and all the bed linens. Brian and I swore up and down that we would never let the laundry situation get that out of control again. When I got home it took me over an hour just to sort and hang it all up. Whew.

I am very excited. I have my first pottery class today. I had to buy a 25 lb. brick of clay to work with. Mostly what I'm excited about is that I got a locker in the art building for the class to store my supplies. It feels like I have a little bit of real estate on campus.

Jan 6, 2006

crossing the finish line

I did it. It's done. Yup, yup, yup, I'm done. I handed in my design scool entrace exam with twenty minutes to spare. I was so excited I went to Starbucks for a grande Carmel Apple Cider. Yes, I got the grande 'cause I am quite the big spender! And it's time to celebrate.

Let me give you a bit of a low down on the exam. It was a total of 35 pages. 20 pages where of supplimental work I wanted to show them, and 20 was the max. Then 2 pages of a survey where the try to figure out if your in design just to get big paychecks. (yeah, right!) One essay on why I want to be a desiger. 2 pages showing a logo I like and why. 2 pages showing a logo I don't like and why and then 1 more page showing my own improved version of the logo. 2 hand-drawn, fully shaded sketched of a fruit or vegetable with a kitchen utensil. 2 pages of hand-drawn illustration on how to change a tire with absolutely no text. Plus 4 more pages of the development of the changing a tire problem. 1 page of exracurricular activities. And so on and so on.

Now that it's handed in, I can focus on my new classes, getting my apartment back in order and the fun project of my new curtains. Yeah! I am so going to goof off tonight!

I won't hear about the results for 3-4 weeks. Wish me luck.

Jan 5, 2006

stoner kid

Lucky me. I am of course fairly new to the area. I don't have many friends here, and I don't know many people on campus. I'm trying to work on my people skills and figure out how people make friends. Now I CAN make friends. It just takes a minimum of 2-3 years of consistent contact to make it happen. Now the "lucky" part is I know one kid. I call him "Stoner Kid." I don't know his name because I figured/hoped I'd never see him again after my photography class wrapped up. However, I see Stoner Kid all the time. He hangs around central campus where I do most of my business. He rides the same bus home as I do. We end up having 2 minute conversations about nothing, and end it in weird silences which trail off into nothingness.

Now most people might just agree to stop all eye contact and cease all forms of communication. Especially since all our communication is weird and forced. BUT NO! This kid keeps making dam eye contact. Why!? I know why. It's because he's Stoner Kid. Stoner Kid doesn't wear a watch and needs to know the time. Stoner Kid can't get the bus schedule memorized. Stoner Kid wants to compare our photo grades. I can't escape him. I've seen him everyday last week at least once a day. The good days are where we only nod at each other from a distance. I try to keep the distance as much as possible. I've even walked in a slighly different direction just so he won't quite fall onto my path.

Now don't go getting all cute and thinking he "likes" me or something. I introduced him once to Brian. It was weird making introductions because I could't very well refer to him as Stoner Kid to his face. Besides, I'm taller than Stoner Kid and even he must feel weird about that. Now I know, I know. He's Stoner Kid. Clearly Stoner Kid might not be firing on all his cylanders. If he were, his nick-name might be Preppy Boy or Average Joe.

So lucky me only ever runs into one person she knows while on campus. Stoner Kid. Maybe I could put a bell on him or something. He probably wouldn't even notice.

so sleepy...

Morning all.

I spent another night hunched over my drafting table. I'm handing in my design school appliation on Friday morning. It's officialy 'crunch' time. I had a very successful night, but I stayed up so late. I could fall asleep over this keyboard right now. I can't though. It not professional, and if you know me, I'm always professional at work. (If you can't read the sarcasm in here I'm more tired than I thought.) Then I have hours and hours of classes before coming back to work later in the day. In other words, I don't get no nap.

The application is looking good though for those of you interested. Well it looks better than I thought it would anyways. Last night I illustrated 9 of 12 panels of "How to Change a Tire." I'm not the best with illustration so I was the most worried about this series of drawings. It's not too bad though. Maybe I will have a future in college. BUT I shouldn't start patting myself on the back to hard. I mean no one is picking me and toting me around on their shoulders. (You know you haven't acheived greatness until people are willing to do that.)

Well I have class in a half an hour. I need to go buy some caffeine.

Jan 4, 2006


Hello all. (I say all as if more than maybe 5 people will actually read this, and I know 5 is an optimistic number.) Well, winter classes began yesterday. I'm behind in my work already. I have to take 45 digital pictures for photoshop class today, and I am supposed to be reading chapters 1 & 3 of a book I haven't bought yet. Plus I have a ceramics class later today. I'm really hoping ceramics doesn't expect a lot of outside the class work. Then again I didn't think Photoshop would have a lot of outside work, and here I am toting around my camera today.

Additionally I'm working on my school of design application. I had all break to do it, but just as I am genetically programmed to do, I procrastinated. The application is due on Friday and I have 3 components left. I need to draw a sequence of pics illustrating how to change a tire, write a letter stating my intentions, and I have to finsih compiling 20 samples of additional work I'd like to present. I'm hoping the letter and the compliling won't be too bad. Now the tire thing will be a pain in the butt which is why I put that one off the most. But, it is my goal to have it completed tonight. Cross your fingers for me.

Now after I get my application in AND catch up on my school work AND do the massive laundry pile currently mocking me in my bedroom, I will begin work on a more fun project which I'm sure you'll be hearing a lot about. I will be attempting to sew curtains. For christmas I got a 3/4 size sewing machine. I haven't sewn anything since 7th grade, but I don't remember it being all that hard. Plus I'm going to keep it simple. Each window will get only one panel probably the exact width of a bolt of fabric. I figure cutting will be the hardest part so I'll let JoAnn Fabrics handle that for me. So one panel that will swag to one side. I'm very excited about it. I have a lot of windows and not much money. Again cross your fingers for me.

Okay that is your Ann update for the day. I will now attempt to reply to all my email. It's a good thing I'm not working at work today!