mixed emotions

Well, today was my birthday. I really have had some mixed up emotions today. I enjoyed getting my way all day - I had Starbucks for breakfast and Cheesecake Factory for dinner, and I listened to up beat songs on the ol'ipod and bossed my hubby around. But I've been sad too. There was a death in my family over the weekend. It's really weighing heavy on my mind. It's so odd that all day I had this terrible sadness sitting next to the joy of being alive. After all, isn't that what birthday is? It's a celebration of life. So I mourned and I celebrated. A very confusing grown-up birthday. And I won't even get into the age thing! I'm not excited to be a year older either. Maybe if I were in a different place in life, I'd be fine with it. But I don't have my career going again, I don't own a home or have a baby on the way. I feel like I'm behind schedule. I'm working on it though so I don't have any regrets. What a weird day - good thing it only comes once a year.

Okay, here's some work I've done recently. It's all stuff from the OSC since all McGraw has let me do so far is batch process files.

This is a business card I did for a member of the Ohio Board of Regents. I did two others as well. This isn't my fav, but it's the one that was declared the winner.


This is a poster I'm currently working on. It hasn't been seen my anyone but me so I'm sure it'll have some major revisions before it's sent to the printers.


This is the front cover for a booklet/brochure for an upcoming conference.

internship update

Well, I've been working at my new internship for 4 days now. It hasn't been all that exciting to be honest. I've been batch processing files. It's not very entertaining, but someone has to do it. That person apparently is me. Oh, well. At least I still get to make stuff at the other job. I made three business card designs today. I just love making stuff! It's hard to explain, but after I make something Iike, I look at almost surprised. Surprised that I made it, I guess. Part of me picks it apart looking for weaknesses too of course. I never see perfection.

blown to bits

Well the new bed time was once again broken before it even began. I am trying to work on a website I'm doing on the side for my boss. I got so caught up in learning new CSS stuff that I just kept going. I know... what a dork. Anywayz, this will be short and sweet because it time for bed. When the site is closer to completion I'll have a link from my site.

nighty, night.

bed times

I had my first day at the new internship today. It went well and luckily everyone has a nameplate over their desks so memorizing names doesn't have to be as big a deal as I feared. The offices are really nice especially since the building is only 5 years old. They are running out of office space though and my desk (which is actually a plastic folding table) is in an alcove of a hallway. The good news is that I have a window, the bad news is that its a floor to ceiling huge one that is near blinding since my desk butts up against it. Plus I kept findiing myself looking past my computer screen to stare at the clouds as they pass by. Needless to say it doesn't look good for the newbie to be woolgathering instead of actually working.

The job seems like it will be fine. I don't think I'll be revolutionizing their designs anytime soon, but it seems like nice steady reasonable work which is fine by me. Besides I still have my other job where I am really creative there. So one day down and a whole summer to go. Tomorrow will be a more average day where I will work from 8-1 at the uber corporate McGraw-Hill offices and then from 2-5 at the laid back university center.

My big goal is to start being in bed by 11pm. Since it's already 10:30 tonight might already be a bust.

count down

On Wednesday, I start my internship. Yikes! I hope my Beacon wardrobe holds up because I couldn't really invest in a new wardrobe. I did drag myself out an buy some new pants. It seems to me that you can get away with a lot if you at least have good pants. I mean all girls want good shoes, but if your pants suck no one keeps looking down to notice. All you see are the bad pants. Now I want to be clear, I'm not putting down a good shirt either. In fact a good shirt is almost as important as the pants - just not AS important.

Back to my point though... (if I have one that is) and my point is that I had to go shopping. I hate shopping. To be more specific I believe that I hate the malls. Outdoor shopping seems just fine to me, but indoor malls make me nervous. I feel like I never park in the right place, and get a feeling of being trapped. The air is stuffy and the interiors are too beige. I usually come home more stressed after shopping at a mall... But in the end I was victorious. I got the new pants and got the hell outta there. Now all I need to do is start the darn job. With my luck, everyone will be wearing jeans and t-shirts and I will have wasted my time and money. BUT that would be fine if I could just wear my jeans and t-shirts since those items make up over 85% of my current wardrobe already.

it was bound to happen

Well, I am now done with all my classes. My test was taken yesterday, one of my projects was due today and the one due on Monday I turned in early. I'm done! Wheww... I can chalk up these classes to experience and call it a day. I feel this odd sense, a strange feeling... it's hard to put my finger on it, but I think it's a lack of guilt and stress. I can read my books and play my video games. I can work on my curtains and a website for my boss. I'm free. My time is my own. All I have to do for the rest of the summer is work. I'm looking forward to it. Yes. I'm looking forward to "just" working. It's a good time in old town today!